We'll go together and just figure it out

So, my weird projects continue.....

 My sister Erin got me this NICE leather bound journal for Christmas.

 I decided to make it a hodge podge of information about my family

 (with a focus on cousins, as I am trying to get to know them all better)

 But let's not leave out the aunts and uncles!!

 And a page for each of mis companeras. 

 As well as all of my favorite song lyrics, quotes, dichos, etc. 

This thing is going to be strange when it is done. 

Strange but awesome! 

 Your daily Sugar 

 Your daily Sister Missionaries doing weird poses at my request. 

And Quakertown's temperature and it's rating on a scale of coolness are finally even. 0. 

All of this bitter cold and I don't even get ONE SNOW DAY. 

Well, I did get one. 

NOW I NEED ONE MORE SNOW DAY.

I am off to the city today, 

With a head cold. 

And impending snow. 

Wish me luck!

Lori Ann

p.s.- Kind of obsessed with "Don't" by Ed Sheeran...who knew a ginger could be a good singer and HOT??

We never go out of style

To my dear niece Elizabeth Mae on the occasion of your 9th birthday. 

(sorry for the delay!)

Elly, I never thought this day would come

You were 4 and I blinked and now you are 9

Some things have changed so much

So much is still the same

You are still sassy, busy, and determined

You are beautiful, happy and 

careening through your childhood at way too fast a pace

This has been a year of gymnastics, Taylor Swift, and tank tops

A year of "watch my back bend walkover" and

"Can we have a sleepover tonight?"

You are somewhere between little girl and preteen 

You are beautiful Elsa and brave Ana all wrapped in one

Elly, this year you made so many discoveries

The magic of Nancy Drew mysteries

That you can make the bad guys good for a weekend

That there is no such thing as too much sparkle
And that you just have to shake off the haters

There were so many crazy talks this year

We talked about your mission

(10 years to go! )

I gave you advice about relationships

("he has to have a job...being in a band is NOT a job...)

You joined my girl power Sunday School class and we started reading the New Testament together

(And you became the New Testament for a day!)

I wish I had a million more memories to share

This was our first year of pulling  more apart than together

But I am excited for you to find your own path

And to continue to become the strong, amazing woman that I knew you would be

The very first moment I saw you 

I love you more than you will ever know, Elly Bean.

Love, 

Aunt Lori 

I will hold you hostage with my scrapbooking

Barry got baptized this week!
 And Sister Roesch got transferred to Jersey and Sister Bischoff went home

People,

My life has been crazy lately. 

I've been on and off meds, running around with the missionaries, and eating Amish donuts. 

Also manic scrapbooking.

My mother says that I hold the whole family hostage with my scrapbooking.

I'm not even sure what that means. 

I keep saying "You should be grateful I don't have a heroin addiction or an out of wedlock baby...so what if I tend to get extremely hyper about crafting?"

ANYWAY...

 I feel like I've finally gotten to a good place. 

I like the unmedicated Lori. 

Yes, I feel anxious sometimes. 

Most of the time. 

But I've realized I need that anxiety to motivate me. To do just about everything. 

Go to work. 

Exercise. 

Not spiral off into completely craziness. 

So welcome back to the unmedicated Spinster Chronicles. 

Things are changing around here. 

All my very favorite sister missionaries have either gone home or been transferred. 

So, I'm looking to sink back into missionary dodging mode. 

I'm off the meds and more focused. 

 I am really hyped up about moving out and teaching the New Testament to my Sunday school class of all girls. 

So, there is that :) 

Anyway- I know this has been a little bit of a boring update. 

Don't worry. 

I'll be back with more exciting news soon! 

Like moving out!

And getting a kitten friend for Sugar! 

And trying to either figure this whole friendship thing out or give up on it all together. 

Stay tuned, devils!

Lori Ann

Take me to church

So....

I have been reading my scriptures daily and I am honestly getting so much out of it.

I love opening them randomly and feeling like God is talking directly to me.

I think this is a time in my life when I need God's direction more than ever.

If you haven't gotten a chance, read the entire 4 books of Phillipians.

(it's in the New Testament!)

It will make you feel like you can do ANYTHING and that God is ALWAYS with you.

Be ready for  long, rambling life update tomorrow!

Lori Ann

Cause I know I don't belong

Uncles Ray and Don (yes, the little one is a boy!) 

I doubt that overtly cheerful tone of this blog lately has given this away but lately I have been feeling restless. 

And then, like it always does, life offered me a chance for change!

My sister is moving (I would say more but it's not my job to put her business of the internet...or so my sisters claim! ) and so my brother, who has been renting her basement, is moving back in with my parents. 

Which means I HAVE TO get out. 

I can't live with siblings anymore. 

And I think I drive him crazy too, so it will be good for everyone.

But I am getting really excited at the thought of having my own place again. 

No TV.

Twinkle lights in every room.

The heat always turned down 

(because I like to be chilled. And low electric bills).

A crafting corner. 

If I get the apartment that I want, I will even be in  different ward. 

Which will be strange but good, I think.

I do thrive in a lot of ways when I am on my own. 

I focus on goal setting. 

I stay organized with money. 

I am more content at my job.

I enjoy my family more. 

So, I am excited. 

T- minus 63 days until move out. 

I feel like packing right now! 

Lori Ann 

p.s.- The picture at the top is my two oldest uncles. 

My Uncle Ray and my Uncle Don

. Both of my dad's older brothers.

 Uncle Ray is the one who died. 

Whose grave we found this summer.

 I had never seen his face before my uncle sent this picture.

 You know you are an adult when family history is the most fascinating thing in the world to you :) 

This emptiness fills my heart

There are moments in my life when I feel very lost. 

Sometimes I wonder if I will look back and be like "Is that what I made of my life?" 

Anyway,

Along that same lines, I have given one of my clients an assignment recently that I did myself a few years ago. 

It's kind of cool. 

It's a way of finding out your individual purpose in living.

So, here is what you do. 

Open a blank document on your laptop or grab a blank piece of paper. 

Start writing what you think your purpose of life might be.

It can be serious, it can be silly, whatever. 

Every time you write something and you know it is not right, you either delete it or erase it or cross it out.

When you get to your TRUE purpose in life it will bring tears to your eyes. 

I did this.

Even though it felt a little facebook gimmick-y. 

And it worked. 

I spent about an hour writing and erasing.

Putting things I thought sounded good or what I thought my purpose in life SHOULD be. 

But when I wrote the following words (which kind of came out of nowhere)

"To become who I am"

I started to cry.

This might not make any sense to anyone else but it makes so much sense to me.

And knowing that purpose helps me when I feel lost. 

So...I challenge you all to try it.

Good luck!

Lori Ann 

Though I'm no man's wife

Here are 5 Things I LOVE about my life right now.

1. I am off ALL of my meds. Which I love (for the most part). I am not tired, crazy, or up and down. Unmedicated Lori is so much more festive. Crazier yes, but more festive.  

2. I am having a sleepover with the infamous Queen Elizabeth (aka Elly) tonight. Last night she informed me "I am excited about tomorrow for 6 reasons..." and then went on to list them point for point. She lost me somewhere around "It's pretzel day" but her enthusiasm for life makes me happy.

3. I am having an office day this weekend. And FINALLY getting caught up. It should only take me about 16 hours or so. No biggie.

4. Sugar has been extra cute lately. She is pure Calico Magic!

5. I am starting a weight loss challenge with my coworkers. They try to act like they are not intimidated but I know they are. It's on!

I wish there were more thrills and drama to report. Tomorrow me and the sister missionaries are going to set a dress on fire. I'll be sure to take pictures!

Lori Ann