Take me to church

So....

I have been reading my scriptures daily and I am honestly getting so much out of it.

I love opening them randomly and feeling like God is talking directly to me.

I think this is a time in my life when I need God's direction more than ever.

If you haven't gotten a chance, read the entire 4 books of Phillipians.

(it's in the New Testament!)

It will make you feel like you can do ANYTHING and that God is ALWAYS with you.

Be ready for  long, rambling life update tomorrow!

Lori Ann

Cause I know I don't belong

Uncles Ray and Don (yes, the little one is a boy!) 

I doubt that overtly cheerful tone of this blog lately has given this away but lately I have been feeling restless. 

And then, like it always does, life offered me a chance for change!

My sister is moving (I would say more but it's not my job to put her business of the internet...or so my sisters claim! ) and so my brother, who has been renting her basement, is moving back in with my parents. 

Which means I HAVE TO get out. 

I can't live with siblings anymore. 

And I think I drive him crazy too, so it will be good for everyone.

But I am getting really excited at the thought of having my own place again. 

No TV.

Twinkle lights in every room.

The heat always turned down 

(because I like to be chilled. And low electric bills).

A crafting corner. 

If I get the apartment that I want, I will even be in  different ward. 

Which will be strange but good, I think.

I do thrive in a lot of ways when I am on my own. 

I focus on goal setting. 

I stay organized with money. 

I am more content at my job.

I enjoy my family more. 

So, I am excited. 

T- minus 63 days until move out. 

I feel like packing right now! 

Lori Ann 

p.s.- The picture at the top is my two oldest uncles. 

My Uncle Ray and my Uncle Don

. Both of my dad's older brothers.

 Uncle Ray is the one who died. 

Whose grave we found this summer.

 I had never seen his face before my uncle sent this picture.

 You know you are an adult when family history is the most fascinating thing in the world to you :) 

This emptiness fills my heart

There are moments in my life when I feel very lost. 

Sometimes I wonder if I will look back and be like "Is that what I made of my life?" 

Anyway,

Along that same lines, I have given one of my clients an assignment recently that I did myself a few years ago. 

It's kind of cool. 

It's a way of finding out your individual purpose in living.

So, here is what you do. 

Open a blank document on your laptop or grab a blank piece of paper. 

Start writing what you think your purpose of life might be.

It can be serious, it can be silly, whatever. 

Every time you write something and you know it is not right, you either delete it or erase it or cross it out.

When you get to your TRUE purpose in life it will bring tears to your eyes. 

I did this.

Even though it felt a little facebook gimmick-y. 

And it worked. 

I spent about an hour writing and erasing.

Putting things I thought sounded good or what I thought my purpose in life SHOULD be. 

But when I wrote the following words (which kind of came out of nowhere)

"To become who I am"

I started to cry.

This might not make any sense to anyone else but it makes so much sense to me.

And knowing that purpose helps me when I feel lost. 

So...I challenge you all to try it.

Good luck!

Lori Ann 

Though I'm no man's wife

Here are 5 Things I LOVE about my life right now.

1. I am off ALL of my meds. Which I love (for the most part). I am not tired, crazy, or up and down. Unmedicated Lori is so much more festive. Crazier yes, but more festive.  

2. I am having a sleepover with the infamous Queen Elizabeth (aka Elly) tonight. Last night she informed me "I am excited about tomorrow for 6 reasons..." and then went on to list them point for point. She lost me somewhere around "It's pretzel day" but her enthusiasm for life makes me happy.

3. I am having an office day this weekend. And FINALLY getting caught up. It should only take me about 16 hours or so. No biggie.

4. Sugar has been extra cute lately. She is pure Calico Magic!

5. I am starting a weight loss challenge with my coworkers. They try to act like they are not intimidated but I know they are. It's on!

I wish there were more thrills and drama to report. Tomorrow me and the sister missionaries are going to set a dress on fire. I'll be sure to take pictures!

Lori Ann

I live and breathe this Philadelphia Freedom

City Trip: Take 3

(plus my testimony)

 Despite being "grounded" from city trips by my mother, I secretly planned and executed another city trip with the sister missionaries and my new BFF Shauri.

(although she may be ready to kill me since I made her the navigator and then shrieked like a crazy person at her)

 The Milford Trio wanted to spend a few hours in the art museum, so Shauri and I took the Kutztown sisters to the Rocky Statute, Independence Hall, the Liberty Bell, and then we got all mixed in with some MLK protests.

 IT WAS EPIC! 

 The Amish donut place was open. 

ON A MONDAY!

 Which never happens.

 I think Sister McCuen was having some kind of spiritual experience eating her donut. 

It was hilarious!

 ' Oh my gosh....This is the BEST donut ever!" 

 Shauri kept me focused and probably saved us all from certain death as I drove like a literal lunatic through the city. 

 The infamous 10 minute art museum trip!

 (for us anyway..the Milford Trio stayed for HOURS)

 THEN.....I missed the exit to take the Kutztown sisters home and ended up having to drive WAY past their house and back again.

 Poor things.

 I got them home 2 hours later than they hoped to be home! 

Protests, Amish Donuts, jump shots, American History, a random side trip to the Poconos and street vendor food. 

Best. Day. Ever. 

Lori Ann

p.s.- In honor of these brave young women, who give 18 months of their life to sharing the gospel, I will be brave enough to share my testimony here. 

I know that God lives. 

I know God loves me. 

He loves all of us.

He wants us to be happy. 

He gave us the Gospel of Jesus Christ to lead us back to Him and to help us to be happy in this life. 

If anyone who reads this blog (hi, mom!) wants to learn more, I would love to introduce you to these amazing missionaries.  

My father's family was converted by two missionaries who knocked on their door one day. 

My mom's family was converted by the good example of a friend. 

Being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I know it is true. And I am lucky enough to have the Gospel in my life because people were brave enough to speak up, to serve, to share the Gospel.

I owe it to them to do the same. 

My mama used to dance

It's my mother's birthday. 

She is 59 today. 

Of course, with her amazing Irish skin and crazy personality, she seems years younger. 

My mother is an amazing woman.

She is independent. 

She is strong. 

She is incredibly smart. 

I don't know if I have ever met a more intelligent woman. 

She is Christ like. 

She watches out for people that everyone else forgets.

She taught me everything important that I needed to know in this life. 

I've written a post before- THIS one- in which I talk about how I would have been the perfect candidate to be aborted.

She was 22, had 3 children ages: 2, 1, and 6 weeks old when she found out about me. 

Heck, even as crazy pro life as I am, I might have been like "Welllll....." 

But she has always been stronger than me. 

I thank God for my father, who taught me to love music and nature. 

I thank God for my brother David who taught me to be compassionate and to memorize entire movies. 

I thank God for my sister Danielle, who taught me that I could do anything I set my mind to.

I thank God for my sister Erin, who taught me to laugh at myself and to really listen.

And I especially thank God for my mom.

 For everything she has taught me.

 To be strong and brave.

To love Cher music.

To dress up as whatever I want for Halloween- no matter how politically incorrect.

How to climb in windows.

How to bake chocolate chip cookies.

And a million and one other things. 

 And I thank God for my mom because, without her, I wouldn't have a family- these people who are so important to me. 

I hope you have the best birthday ever, Mom. 

I don't know what we would do without you. 

It's a good thing you are headed into your 60's with a nice, long life ahead of you- lots of plans :) 

I love you.

Love, 

your baby

(NOT HOBSEY!)

Lori Ann

Cause I'm broken

I have already broken my resolution to blog every day. 

Yes. 

I like to start the year off on the right foot, baby! 

Anyway, back to the topic at hand. 

This month has already been interesting. 

I got to hang out with my extremely cool cousins. 

 I toasted the New Year with some sparkling cider. (because I'm edgy like that)

 And I've spent the rest of the time scrap booking and hanging out with Sugar and Erin. 

I am going to miss Erin. 

She goes home to Utah tomorrow. 

Life is always easier and more fun with Erin here. 

I can't wait for her wedding though. 

She has already told our niece, Elly

"I am going to make Aunt Lori wear the ugliest bridesmaid dress of all time!" 

Yikes.

Lori Ann

p.s.- I am half marathon training again. Get ready for the painful emotional journey I am about to take us all on :) 

Blank Space, baby

So...

Since I already broke my first resolution (no candy for breakfast) let's at least get one accomplished!

Blogging daily! 

This is going to be a painful emotional journey. 

Not so much for me. 

For you people. 

Behind all of the resolutions and crazy diet schemes, my real goal for 2015 is to find joy in my life.

Working in the nursing home through college, I saw too many people who had never really been happy. 

Who kept waiting for the right person to make them happy or the right time. 

But between seeing that and learning all that I have as a therapist I do know one thing. 

I know that I am responsible for my happiness. 

(well me and my daily 1000 mg of xanax!)

And in 2015 I want to have joy. 

So...here's hoping that this will be the BEST. YEAR. EVER.

Lori Ann 

* future bridesmaid*